Song Dedication
I heard a new song today, new to me anyway, on a new album newly imported into my iPod. It made me think of her, of easier times, happier times, before reality crashed our party. The singer was making...
View ArticleI Now Pronounce You…. ?
Queerly beloved… we are gathered here today to witness the joining of this gender non-conforming transmasculine individual and this woman…. A long time friend and reader, Dru, posed this question to...
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Four Years Ago Tonight #WhenKyleMetRoxy
Yes, that’s right, four years ago on the night of November the 12th, @butchtastickyle tipped his hat to @sroxy for the first time. This evening of flirtation started our love affair. Back then, our...
View ArticleChange Never Stays The Same
Those of you following from home know that a lot of change and turmoil has rolled through my life this year. Changes to my relationship with Roxy have been really hard on both of us but we remain...
View ArticleSinclair’s series on Poly, my contribution
In case you haven’t tuned into the poly interview series Sinclair is running on Sugarbutch Chronicles, you really should. Every post is wisdom gleaned from a different person’s own experience, so the...
View ArticleToday’s Thoughts
I wrote this as a Facebook status update a couple of days ago: standing still when the truth comes to have a word with you, not panicking, not running away is so hard. Feels very adult to hold space...
View ArticleI’m Having a Non-Consensual Monday
Monday came to my door early this morning, even though I didn’t want it. The delivery person held out a clipboard and told me I had to sign for it but I hesitated, reached out and then withdrew my...
View ArticleNo regrets…. well, maybe a couple
I try to live my life in such a way that I won’t be confronted by a long list of regrets in my last moments. Nonetheless, I have plenty and can only hope to outnumber them with an even longer list of...
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“Plus, He’s Hung…”
Earlier on Facebook: Kyle Jones: a mere 150 words for a session description/marketing pitch/come on …. trying to squish my passion and excitement into a very small space Roxy: “An hour with this hot...
View ArticleCleaning Out My Pockets
Before I head out of town and out of internet range for the weekend, I should empty my pockets and do a few updates. Illness Update: I’m finally well again. I got a flu virus right after I got my flu...
View ArticleClearing Baggage
There are days when I feel like I’m making progress, moving forward with my life and getting more healthy emotionally. Then there are days like the ones recently where I feel like I must be on an...
View ArticleProtected: Hidden In Plain Sight
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View ArticleA Mother of a Day
The cracks have turned into jagged breaks and I’m ooozing out all over. All the thoughts, feelings, impulses… messy, messy, messy… that I’ve been holding down for so long, are bursting out in an ugly...
View ArticleAsk Kyle Anything… Answers (hopefully) to Jenna’s Questions
Jenna asks: A while ago invited your blog readers to ask you anything. So I’m asking. How do you define “in love” and do you think it is possible to maintain an “in love” state with the same person for...
View ArticleHealing Conversation
My wife and I had a conversation the other night, a ground-breaking, amazing conversation. I ended up staying up late, which I paid for the next day in mindless exhaustion, but I’m glad we did it. It...
View ArticleString of Increasingly Vicious Curse Words
Today is another angry day, stupid, self-damaging, fucked up, shitty anger. Where it started almost doesn’t matter, except it’s an incident I’d rather not repeat and in order to make that happen I...
View ArticleA Pause
Yesterday was remarkable because of what didn’t happen: no emotional shitstorms, no panic attacks. I woke up with the same anxious belly I’ve become accustomed to, worried that I’d step on a mine...
View ArticleLetting Go, Stopping the Endless Loop of Loss
I’ve been struggling in the space between holding on and letting go. Not wanting to let go of what I used to have and also knowing I have to, that if I continue to hang on to this heavy grief it will...
View ArticleDis-Connecting
I’ve been feeling a new kind of disconnect or distance internally between myself and the current events that have been so triggering of late. I’ve been looking at that disconnection to understand it...
View ArticleWhere I am Today
I don’t know why I thought it would be easy to dive deep with therapy. I guess my internal shielding mechanisms have been functioning so well that I had no idea how much crap I had to work on. Turns...
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